Hiding in plain sight | citysky's Blog

I'm hiding once again.

Right here. Kind of coming in the back door. I suppose if I really wanted this private I'd just hit "personal" or "hide" or whatever shit button is on here.

Do you detect some anger in my voice? You'd be right. I'm pretty sick and disgusted by things the past month. I figure leaving here as I've done once before would be the cure all. I could stop writing and hanging out on the web and face my demons at home. Take all my time and creativity and work on myself. Fix what's so busted up in me.

Didn't work.

I've cried so much the past month that my nose hurts. I walk around with it red and sore. People ask me if I have allergies. It's so much more polite to say yes instead of telling them you've been sobbing. Can you imagine the look of horror on their face? The hasty retreat out the elevator before the door slides shut trapping them in there with an emotional, angry woman.

I am that angry woman. Property damage like an angry woman. You know that song?

S1 got layed off today. Thought we dodged the bullet. Economy looking up and all that bullshit on CNN. Not in this neck of the woods apparently. Not here.

My life is most definitely not looking up. Hell I can barely see straight ahead.